Erisaka

rebel_deep_blue @ 2009-03-19T16:09:00

2009-03-19T20:15:40Z

I'm officaly bowing out of this.........I'm sorry, but i can't stop crying.

I can't take being yelled at like everything is my fault. it's not okay.
I'm so fucking tired of being the bad guy in this.

as far as i care, i'm dead.

rebel_deep_blue @ 2009-01-25T19:29:00

2009-01-26T00:30:59Z

Real life friends cut
I'm taking people out of my life, not just my lj
if you think i shoudnt be doing this say so and say why
other wise

GTFO

rebel_deep_blue @ 2009-01-01T00:00:00

2009-01-01T05:00:26Z

Happy new year bitches

rebel_deep_blue @ 2008-11-04T23:11:00

2008-11-05T04:15:46Z

BEST
DAY
EVER

I'm so happy i got to vote, like for reals

meg and I kept each other updated via IM's and ABC
I just wanna hug someone right now...*hugs growly*

well mr. president...here's your chance, don't let the american people down, i have faith in you.

<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

rebel_deep_blue @ 2008-07-10T19:35:00

2008-07-10T23:38:56Z

Leigh had to drop otakon this year, which really sucks b/c there goes my setsuna T_T

but i have room for 2-3 at the radisson

BILL ASK YOUR FRIEND WE NEEDS PEOPLE!!

otakon

2008-07-02T23:55:42Z

so i have room for 2 maybe 3
who needs space to crash?
we're at the radisson

comment if your interested

After thinking it over....

2008-06-11T19:53:29Z

I think the only reason i hate you is b/c I never was given a good reason as to why you hate me.
I'll admit i thought you were very pretty and got shy around you when i first met you, unsure of what you thought of me.
then i got to know you, to your friends you were a great person but to those you hated, look out.
Again i tryed not to pay attention b/c i thought i could be your friend.....then a falling out. and the names started,
you said some very hurtful things and practicaly disowned people who were friends of those you were aganst. that included me.

yet now you've made up with some of them and i'm told what an amazing friend you are, and when i try to reach out to you
i'm told it's not a good idea, b/c you never liked me.

All i want to know is why?
i think i deserve that.

but hey can't please the masses everyday huh?

public entry b/c i don't care who see's this.

<3
shelbs

Friends Cut

2008-05-15T22:56:31Z

so it's come down to this, but hell it needs to be done

either way this is a friend cut
if you feel you were deleted unfairly and have a good reason as to why i should add you back
tell me
other wise the only people i'm keeping on this list i:
1.have alot in common with
2.know personally
3. are heathly (mentaly) for me to be around
4. are my real life friend

thank for understanding

Anime Boston

2008-03-03T01:43:53Z

I HAVE ROOM AGAIN!
space for 2
do you need a room??!!?!?!!?
take mine!!!

...

2008-01-11T03:10:21Z

i love you all

forgive me

rebel_deep_blue @ 2007-08-29T14:27:00

2007-08-29T18:40:29Z

This peice of crap is friends only.........thank you

comment me if you want to be a friend and why i should add you

i hath returned

2007-07-15T06:28:06Z

so my school fucked me over
as did 579

but now i'm at holliester, i'm the visual merch. there

*sighs*
the love life has been sucky still,nothing new there
but on the bright side i gots a phone number for a very lovely lady the other day
it made my fricken week

otakon is coming up, i fear the drama, what with the whole issues i've been haviong lately, thank god i have my boys to back me up and protect me from nasty stalkers and freaks out there

you know who you are you weirdos

i have quite a bit many costumes to take with me, my favorites are Ome of air gear and Karin of Naruto, and of course my prize Jibril

i can't wait to see everyone......well see most people

<3

angst meet shelbs....shelbs, angst.....

2007-05-15T03:45:13Z

well i'm full on confused right now, some of you know what i'm talking about.

it's the person i like, i'm not gunna name them incase they read this i'll be too embarressed to look at them again. so lets just call them 'jinny'

well, the other night i told jinny that i liked them, but i think they may of taken it as i like you as a friend not as i like you, which is how i ment for it to be. maybe i should just give it more time you know

they are still hurt by there last realtionship, as am i.......

*sighs*

maybe i'm just a wishful thinker, hoping for soemthing that wont happen.....
i invitem jinny to bikkinicon, my cosplay pool party, they said they'll try and come to the best of there abilitys, i hope they make it.

on a different note

i hate nicks friends...justin most of all, and the chubby one, i hate them both
justin talks shit on me to nick all the time, even have names for me like 'blood sucking women' or the old stand by 'whore'

b/c you know, nick never did anyting wrong....not like he didn't break my heart time and time again.......no not at all

and then theres iris......i just dont like the bitch..........thats all

well i'm gunne go eat some mac and cheese and watch the food network

<3

far far away......

2007-05-10T18:36:23Z

i took a massive step today, i shut down my xanga, it feels like i killed off this huge part of me, but it was full of horrible memorys of past relationships and high school BS so i guess it's just best that i never look at it again.

i got muffins in the oven, nice.....

^_^* i found myself on 4chan, at least they weren't saying i was fat.......just a picture of me and niisan as maya and shin

i'ma go and have a muffin now

<3

holy crap....

2007-05-10T02:27:48Z

well.........it's been odd lately......i had a funny dream....about niisan......god i have issues......

the chinchila died today, my mom cryed, i handled it like an adult, buried it in the back yard

my sakura costume is pissing me off, i may have to sit fate/stay out this time around if it doesn't start going my way, still waiting for a wig to come in the mail.

i'm so tired of old swingers hitting on me

no i dont want to hear your band b/c i bet my arm they fucking suck

asians dont do everything better..........for fuck sake........

okay anger over.........................god i need a hug.............

10000 gods and demons

2007-05-08T15:07:38Z

so i've been thinking lately, why do i suck at relationships?

well, maybe i'm just picky, maybe i need to just calm down.
or maybe people need to be educated and talk like a normal person without referencing 4chan or something totaly stupid every 10 seconds.

maybe i should open up, let people in easyer.....................ohhh yeah that will work...........................

perhaps i should not be as shy as i am around someone i like.....
....................well that one can't be helped, i suck at telling someone how i feel so i revert to the old 2nd grader crap of making fun of someone and running away

it could be that i'm just up tight............................no no...................i effing hate stupidity...................dont fuck with me on that stuff........................

should i show off the lady parts more?.................well i dont wear pants on a normal basies and most days i dont care...........

*sigh*
maybe i should i give up.................who knows, i'm still holding out on that 'someone just for me' stuff..........god i feel emo right now..........

any way on a lighter note, i got to ride on the motorcycle with my dad last night, i haven't done that in like 2 years, it was fun, i forgot how itchy it makes your legs though, from the wind hitting it.
also i got a new job at the 579 in parkcity, they seem nice and it's a small place so hopefully there will be less dramu then at old navy with all those damned high schoolers and bible beaters..........but who knows

well <3
i love you all!